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11.17.2011
In My Next 30 Years
Well - it's delayed, but here is part two... typed up one handed with my sleeping baby in my other arm...
(in no particular order)
My next thirty years will be better than the last. I will:
(in no particular order)
become a black belt
become good friends with Emlee
be attentive and appreciative to Trent
be an awesome, active mother to Trinity
give Trent the baby boy he wants
finish my Bachelor's degree
pay off my student loans
not incur so much new debt
maintain a good credit score
find the perfect career
achieve and maintain a healthy weight
be a better friend and make new friends
learn to truly love unconditionally
be more involved with my family
watch less television
quit smoking
get in some quality travel time
truly live
truly laugh
truly love...
there will be fewer tears in this 30 years and better communication with others... i plan to share my thoughts and hopefully understand them...
that's the plan, now to make it happen!
9.30.2011
My First Thirty Years
I have hit that ever dreaded age - 30, been there for almost a month now... really feel no older than I did at 29 or even 25, or heck, not really sure what's so different now than at 18... and maybe that's the problem.
My metabolism has progressively died off on me - I guess that's one difference.
I'm in a happy marriage now - that's definitly a new difference.
And I'm pregnant and feeling more aches and pains than I recall with my first child 12 years ago - so I guess that's sayinig something for age.
But really, life doesn't seem much different to me, which has caused a lot of reflection, both good and bad about my life and my future. So as a part of a two part series (next up - my next 30 years), I want to take a moment to reflect on my life up until now.
Accomplishments in my first 30 years:
EMLEE! # 1.
Meeting, hooking & 'trapping' Trent #2
Maintaining a job for 12 straight years
Completing my GED
Completing my Associates Degree
Almost completing my Bachelor's Degree (still in progress, no worries - it will get done)
Learning and attempting several different career opportunities
Two home purchases
Pretty decent credit
Independance
Pregnant with baby # 2 (still in progress, no worries - she'll be a 'next 30 years accomplishment')
Surviving and learning to live well despite severe depression
Making friends
Keeping friends
Being Kind
Gaining Confidence
Earning my 1st degree brown belt in Karate
Maintaining a decent figure
Keeping a good relationship with my mother
Providing for my family
Always having X-mas gifts under the tree for those that I love
Regrets for my 1st 30 years:
Letting loved ones leave me - without them knowing I loved them! #1
Marrying too young.
Dropping out of highschool (despite pursuing my GED right after)
Telling one of my bosses he was the worst boss I'd ever had
Telling my husband (when engaged) that I didn't want to love him anymore. (I really did - couldn't help it)
Not eloping to Vegas!
Cashing in my 401k savings - twice... (it was needed)
Not starting a new 401k plan when returning to Affina (HGS)
Letting my teeth get so bad
Not finishing my degree early in life
Not having a means of paying for my degree with anything other than loans I'm not sure how I'll repay
Not working out more
Not spending more time with my daughter
Sleeping around - way too much
Feeling dependant upon having a man in my life
Releasing my pains through late night crys and sobbing in a bubble bath - surely there were more constructive ways
And I'm sure there are more... both accomplishments and regrets... but who wants to focus that hard on the past, when I have a perfectly good next 30 years ahead of me... and need to think about what happens next.
My metabolism has progressively died off on me - I guess that's one difference.
I'm in a happy marriage now - that's definitly a new difference.
And I'm pregnant and feeling more aches and pains than I recall with my first child 12 years ago - so I guess that's sayinig something for age.
But really, life doesn't seem much different to me, which has caused a lot of reflection, both good and bad about my life and my future. So as a part of a two part series (next up - my next 30 years), I want to take a moment to reflect on my life up until now.
Accomplishments in my first 30 years:
EMLEE! # 1.
Meeting, hooking & 'trapping' Trent #2
Maintaining a job for 12 straight years
Completing my GED
Completing my Associates Degree
Almost completing my Bachelor's Degree (still in progress, no worries - it will get done)
Learning and attempting several different career opportunities
Two home purchases
Pretty decent credit
Independance
Pregnant with baby # 2 (still in progress, no worries - she'll be a 'next 30 years accomplishment')
Surviving and learning to live well despite severe depression
Making friends
Keeping friends
Being Kind
Gaining Confidence
Earning my 1st degree brown belt in Karate
Maintaining a decent figure
Keeping a good relationship with my mother
Providing for my family
Always having X-mas gifts under the tree for those that I love
Regrets for my 1st 30 years:
Letting loved ones leave me - without them knowing I loved them! #1
Marrying too young.
Dropping out of highschool (despite pursuing my GED right after)
Telling one of my bosses he was the worst boss I'd ever had
Telling my husband (when engaged) that I didn't want to love him anymore. (I really did - couldn't help it)
Not eloping to Vegas!
Cashing in my 401k savings - twice... (it was needed)
Not starting a new 401k plan when returning to Affina (HGS)
Letting my teeth get so bad
Not finishing my degree early in life
Not having a means of paying for my degree with anything other than loans I'm not sure how I'll repay
Not working out more
Not spending more time with my daughter
Sleeping around - way too much
Feeling dependant upon having a man in my life
Releasing my pains through late night crys and sobbing in a bubble bath - surely there were more constructive ways
And I'm sure there are more... both accomplishments and regrets... but who wants to focus that hard on the past, when I have a perfectly good next 30 years ahead of me... and need to think about what happens next.
9.01.2011
Updates
Tooth infection cleared up. Yay!
Trinity has grown... 3lb, 3oz as of this morning... 31 weeks along. 53rd percentile. Yay!
Em's successfully caring for her braces... thank Heavens!
Em has successfully begun her 8th grade year... can't believe it!
We have officially moved into our new home... About Time!
Still behind at work... ugh...
Still living out of boxes until we get our basement fixed up... ugh...
Still haven't won the lottery... BOO...
Still haven't found my dream job... BOO...
Still dreaming about it though... GO ME!
And that's my life, in a small nutshell...
More to come when time allows...
Trinity has grown... 3lb, 3oz as of this morning... 31 weeks along. 53rd percentile. Yay!
Em's successfully caring for her braces... thank Heavens!
Em has successfully begun her 8th grade year... can't believe it!
We have officially moved into our new home... About Time!
Still behind at work... ugh...
Still living out of boxes until we get our basement fixed up... ugh...
Still haven't won the lottery... BOO...
Still haven't found my dream job... BOO...
Still dreaming about it though... GO ME!
And that's my life, in a small nutshell...
More to come when time allows...
8.17.2011
Pain in the Jaw
Eek.
So I got three cavities filled four weeks ago... following proper procedure to take care of any needed dental work during my second trimester of pregnancy.
Within hours of my face regaining feeling, one of teeth was achey. Evey website I visited told me that having a large cavity drilled and capped can leave the root sensitive and cause a little pain for anywhere for a few days to a few weeks after the filling, which will eventually cease. For that reason, I waited... and waited. The pain subsided slightly, but then came back with a vengeance at about 130am this past Monday morning. I don't think I've really slept since. My mouth throbs constantly... I can barely tell from which tooth the pain is originating anymore. It hurts to chew, it hurts to smoke, it hurts to talk and it hurts just to breath. This is a pain so intense I can't concentrate on anything other than its existence and would do anything to rid myself of it.
So I started looking Monday afternoon for 'at home remedies' to ease the pain until I can get it looked at... salt, tea bags, lemon rinds, ice packs, drinking water... everyone had an answer... and when everyone has a different solution to a problem, you can almost be guaranteed that none of them will work. That's what I came into. I have coated my sore tooth in salt, rinsed with salt water, slept with an ice pack under my cheek, and followed every other piece of advice and can't seem to get a moment of peace from this pain. The only thing I have found to work is holding Listerine in my mouth in that area for a while. This helps to burn the pain away for a very brief period of time.
Being pregnant, pain killers are for the most part out of the question. I am allowed Tylenol, but apparently the powers of Tylenol are futile against this pain. I'm starting to think there is infection involved as well, since I woke up feverish this morning and sick to my stomach. Luckily that feeling passed by early afternoon. I have given up on Tylenol almost altogether... safe as they say it may be when pregnant, I'm sure I'm not supposed to be popping it like candy. I'm also sure it's not good for me to be in this much pain and not able to sleep for three straight days, so I broke down and made an appointment to go back to the dentist tomorrow morning, bright and early. Wishing I could go now, and maybe get some sleep tonight, but alas... I must wait.
It makes me wonder though... yes, this was apparently a big cavity, and yes, it was sensitive to hot and cold... but no... it NEVER hurt this bad. I rarely ever felt the tooth until after the cavity was drilled out and then filled in, and have been in at least mild pain/discomfort ever since. I chose to get it filled knowing I should avoid dental work in my final trimester and alas, I'm now feeling like I would have been better off to let it wait until the baby was born and deal with it then. At least then, when the filling caused an abscess, I'd be on maternity leave and have more time at my disposal to deal with such things. As it is, we're moving this week and I haven't been near as productive when not at work as I would otherwise have liked. Right now all I want to do is go home and soak my face in ice and try to get a wink of sleep before the throbbing commences.
Wish me luck everyone... Trinity isn't enjoying the pain her mother is in now. By this time tomorrow she and I should be all better, and hopefully not by losing a tooth in the process... eek... I kinda need this one.
So I got three cavities filled four weeks ago... following proper procedure to take care of any needed dental work during my second trimester of pregnancy.
Within hours of my face regaining feeling, one of teeth was achey. Evey website I visited told me that having a large cavity drilled and capped can leave the root sensitive and cause a little pain for anywhere for a few days to a few weeks after the filling, which will eventually cease. For that reason, I waited... and waited. The pain subsided slightly, but then came back with a vengeance at about 130am this past Monday morning. I don't think I've really slept since. My mouth throbs constantly... I can barely tell from which tooth the pain is originating anymore. It hurts to chew, it hurts to smoke, it hurts to talk and it hurts just to breath. This is a pain so intense I can't concentrate on anything other than its existence and would do anything to rid myself of it.
So I started looking Monday afternoon for 'at home remedies' to ease the pain until I can get it looked at... salt, tea bags, lemon rinds, ice packs, drinking water... everyone had an answer... and when everyone has a different solution to a problem, you can almost be guaranteed that none of them will work. That's what I came into. I have coated my sore tooth in salt, rinsed with salt water, slept with an ice pack under my cheek, and followed every other piece of advice and can't seem to get a moment of peace from this pain. The only thing I have found to work is holding Listerine in my mouth in that area for a while. This helps to burn the pain away for a very brief period of time.
Being pregnant, pain killers are for the most part out of the question. I am allowed Tylenol, but apparently the powers of Tylenol are futile against this pain. I'm starting to think there is infection involved as well, since I woke up feverish this morning and sick to my stomach. Luckily that feeling passed by early afternoon. I have given up on Tylenol almost altogether... safe as they say it may be when pregnant, I'm sure I'm not supposed to be popping it like candy. I'm also sure it's not good for me to be in this much pain and not able to sleep for three straight days, so I broke down and made an appointment to go back to the dentist tomorrow morning, bright and early. Wishing I could go now, and maybe get some sleep tonight, but alas... I must wait.
It makes me wonder though... yes, this was apparently a big cavity, and yes, it was sensitive to hot and cold... but no... it NEVER hurt this bad. I rarely ever felt the tooth until after the cavity was drilled out and then filled in, and have been in at least mild pain/discomfort ever since. I chose to get it filled knowing I should avoid dental work in my final trimester and alas, I'm now feeling like I would have been better off to let it wait until the baby was born and deal with it then. At least then, when the filling caused an abscess, I'd be on maternity leave and have more time at my disposal to deal with such things. As it is, we're moving this week and I haven't been near as productive when not at work as I would otherwise have liked. Right now all I want to do is go home and soak my face in ice and try to get a wink of sleep before the throbbing commences.
Wish me luck everyone... Trinity isn't enjoying the pain her mother is in now. By this time tomorrow she and I should be all better, and hopefully not by losing a tooth in the process... eek... I kinda need this one.
8.01.2011
Weekend Excitement - Cubs/Cards
We got to go see our Cub/Cards game at Busch Stadium last night. Thankfully for me, the Cubs won! I don't get to see that very often so it was a wonderful change of pace.
I was awesome this weekend and got my homework all done before I crashed Saturday night, so we were able to leave early and spend the day in St. Louis before the game. It was a nice little get-away from our normal routine and all the craziness of being pregnant, working all the time, going to school and trying to arrange our move in the upcoming weeks.
Despite some extremely slow construction zones (does cutting to one lane from two REALLY mean that everyone must come to a complete stand still and drive stop/start at 5 miles an hour through the zone?), we made it there in about three hours. We did lunch at Lions Choice - an absolute must for Trent every time we happen to be in St. Louis. The menu there is fairly simple - Roast Beef sandwiches and fries for the most part - but he refers to it as 'like Arby's on crack'... and I admit, the roast beef sandwiches are pretty darn good (next time I'll ask for no season salt - that was a bit much), but delicious.
From there we found our way to the St. Louis Zoo. I'd never been, so I thought it would be nice to check it out, and Trent was a good sport about hanging out in the heat/humidity with me and checking it out. We only had a little less than two hours there, but we made due with the time we had and saw as much as possible. I can't say I didn't get any excersize for the day at least... If you didn't want to spend the $12.00 for parking, the option was to walk a heck of a long way to get into the zoo, and then of course, walking the spanse of a huge zoo to try and see everything we (I) wanted to. Luckily, it didn't feel near so hot as we expected and we managed to enjoy every minute of it. It makes me think more and more of the baby in my tummy and how awesome it will be when she gets old enough to enjoy adventures of that nature with us!
My favorites at the zoo are the penguins and the monkeys... they are adorable. I am sure Trinity will love them as much as I do. I wonder if I can get her a pet tamarin monkey... :) I know I'd like one.
From the zoo, we made our way back downtown and sought out are parking for the game. We got there early enough that Trent could enjoy a beer at a nearby tavern for only $5.00 instead of the $8.00/each inside the stadium and then we wandered around the stadium for an hour, admiring all the possible views and finding our own seats with the best possible view (Right behind home plate!!!). We did a dinner of junk food at the game - can't beat that, and watched as the Cubs regained a little respect for the series and won the game! I needed that victory.
After a few more drinks at the tavern across from the stadium, we decided traffic was better and it was time to make our way home (this being 11pm already). Since I was the sober one, I was left with the task of driving us, and unfortunately, our GPS took us in a big circle three times before we fought her directions and found our own way to the bridge she swore we were on when we weren't. She asked me twice to take a right, directly into the river... which I upset her greatly by not following those instructions. As always though, once we got to where we knew our way, the GPS chick got her bearings and led us home safely. I only had to fight myself to stay awake a few times on the drive, and pulled us into our driveway safely at about 2:20 am this morning. I did feel bad for Trent having to be at work bright and early, but I at least got to sleep in a bit. :)
Cost for the day? $207 for the tickets. $44 in gas money. $11 for breakfast/morning road snacks/waters along the way. $18 for lunch at Lions Choice. Zoo - absolutely free except $3 for water. $15 for parking at game. $18 for before and after drinks at bar. $80 for drinks at the game. $24 for food at the game. = $420 (and you expected me to say priceless... ha...)
All in all a good day though.
I was awesome this weekend and got my homework all done before I crashed Saturday night, so we were able to leave early and spend the day in St. Louis before the game. It was a nice little get-away from our normal routine and all the craziness of being pregnant, working all the time, going to school and trying to arrange our move in the upcoming weeks.
Despite some extremely slow construction zones (does cutting to one lane from two REALLY mean that everyone must come to a complete stand still and drive stop/start at 5 miles an hour through the zone?), we made it there in about three hours. We did lunch at Lions Choice - an absolute must for Trent every time we happen to be in St. Louis. The menu there is fairly simple - Roast Beef sandwiches and fries for the most part - but he refers to it as 'like Arby's on crack'... and I admit, the roast beef sandwiches are pretty darn good (next time I'll ask for no season salt - that was a bit much), but delicious.
From there we found our way to the St. Louis Zoo. I'd never been, so I thought it would be nice to check it out, and Trent was a good sport about hanging out in the heat/humidity with me and checking it out. We only had a little less than two hours there, but we made due with the time we had and saw as much as possible. I can't say I didn't get any excersize for the day at least... If you didn't want to spend the $12.00 for parking, the option was to walk a heck of a long way to get into the zoo, and then of course, walking the spanse of a huge zoo to try and see everything we (I) wanted to. Luckily, it didn't feel near so hot as we expected and we managed to enjoy every minute of it. It makes me think more and more of the baby in my tummy and how awesome it will be when she gets old enough to enjoy adventures of that nature with us!
My favorites at the zoo are the penguins and the monkeys... they are adorable. I am sure Trinity will love them as much as I do. I wonder if I can get her a pet tamarin monkey... :) I know I'd like one.
From the zoo, we made our way back downtown and sought out are parking for the game. We got there early enough that Trent could enjoy a beer at a nearby tavern for only $5.00 instead of the $8.00/each inside the stadium and then we wandered around the stadium for an hour, admiring all the possible views and finding our own seats with the best possible view (Right behind home plate!!!). We did a dinner of junk food at the game - can't beat that, and watched as the Cubs regained a little respect for the series and won the game! I needed that victory.
After a few more drinks at the tavern across from the stadium, we decided traffic was better and it was time to make our way home (this being 11pm already). Since I was the sober one, I was left with the task of driving us, and unfortunately, our GPS took us in a big circle three times before we fought her directions and found our own way to the bridge she swore we were on when we weren't. She asked me twice to take a right, directly into the river... which I upset her greatly by not following those instructions. As always though, once we got to where we knew our way, the GPS chick got her bearings and led us home safely. I only had to fight myself to stay awake a few times on the drive, and pulled us into our driveway safely at about 2:20 am this morning. I did feel bad for Trent having to be at work bright and early, but I at least got to sleep in a bit. :)
Cost for the day? $207 for the tickets. $44 in gas money. $11 for breakfast/morning road snacks/waters along the way. $18 for lunch at Lions Choice. Zoo - absolutely free except $3 for water. $15 for parking at game. $18 for before and after drinks at bar. $80 for drinks at the game. $24 for food at the game. = $420 (and you expected me to say priceless... ha...)
All in all a good day though.
7.28.2011
A world of hard work and constant changes
So much has transpired in the last week, and only ten times as much to come in the next few months.
Our new home is ready for us now... quite a bit of work left to do before we can move in, but it's ours to do with as we wish. We spent some time there over last weekend and early this week cleaning and scrubbing away (sweating too... no air conditioning right now)... and are slowly making our way through all the necessary tasks so we can take full ownership.
Cleaning the fridge took me over 3.5 hours, and Trent has spent as much time scrubbing walls down. Em has been diligently (yes, really), working on the floors for me. While her technique could use definite improvement, I'm just pleased she's pitching in to help. We still haven't yet touched the basement, but as long as the upstairs is clean, I'll start carting over boxes and stocking them while I wait for Trent and his crew to get some painting done. My goal right now is to move all of our big stuff (the last stuff to move) on August 20th, and consider the home all ours at that point. Although that's a tight squeeze for Em who returns to school on the 22nd I have no doubt she can cope.
Speaking of Em, she got the pleasure of her first gynecological appointment yesterday morning (luckily no exam required), and we got to have the possible birth control talk. She's eleven, I know! But 12 in less than 2 weeks, and rapidly becoming a woman.
If that weren't torture enough, this morning I got to take her to get her braces put on. Poor kid. I felt bad for her while they were digging around in her mouth, but she needs them, so be it. I cut a check for $650 down payment, and committed myself to $168/mo for the next two years at the same time. I wonder what happens if I default on those payments now that the braces are in... do they stop working on them? Let them stay on forever until they fall off naturally? Or do they come and repossess all the metal in her mouth? It would be interesting to find out, but I think instead I'll just find a way to pay off the added debt. Thankfully - no interest... whew, at least some company isn't completely trying to bleed me dry.
Affina, my career home for the past 12 years is no longer Affina - we are now HGS or Hinduja Global Solutions, and not only changing names but looking to move locations in the near future as well. Quite a lot of excitement at work. At this time, however, none of that excitement has anything to do with a promotion for a diligent, deserving, hard working, loyal, dedicated, intelligent, capably, tenured employee that is in dyer need of additional income and soon to be leaving on maternity leave, so not able to hope for any new opportunities in the next three months. Speaking of bleeding me dry, my place of employment has the ability to do that to me over and over and over again, and yet I still believe that opportunities exist here, and I WILL find them. I can't speak bad of Affina, they've paid my bills for years... unfortunately, my pay has not inflated at the rate of my living expenses, and with a baby on the way, I'm starting to get scared.
That being said, my search for part time work at home (legitimate) jobs, still continues. I've found several in which I'm interested and at which I think I can excel, it's all a matter of selling myself to them now, getting the job, and seeing the compensation. It will happen.
That's all for now folks. I'll try to write again before a week goes by.
Our new home is ready for us now... quite a bit of work left to do before we can move in, but it's ours to do with as we wish. We spent some time there over last weekend and early this week cleaning and scrubbing away (sweating too... no air conditioning right now)... and are slowly making our way through all the necessary tasks so we can take full ownership.
Cleaning the fridge took me over 3.5 hours, and Trent has spent as much time scrubbing walls down. Em has been diligently (yes, really), working on the floors for me. While her technique could use definite improvement, I'm just pleased she's pitching in to help. We still haven't yet touched the basement, but as long as the upstairs is clean, I'll start carting over boxes and stocking them while I wait for Trent and his crew to get some painting done. My goal right now is to move all of our big stuff (the last stuff to move) on August 20th, and consider the home all ours at that point. Although that's a tight squeeze for Em who returns to school on the 22nd I have no doubt she can cope.
Speaking of Em, she got the pleasure of her first gynecological appointment yesterday morning (luckily no exam required), and we got to have the possible birth control talk. She's eleven, I know! But 12 in less than 2 weeks, and rapidly becoming a woman.
If that weren't torture enough, this morning I got to take her to get her braces put on. Poor kid. I felt bad for her while they were digging around in her mouth, but she needs them, so be it. I cut a check for $650 down payment, and committed myself to $168/mo for the next two years at the same time. I wonder what happens if I default on those payments now that the braces are in... do they stop working on them? Let them stay on forever until they fall off naturally? Or do they come and repossess all the metal in her mouth? It would be interesting to find out, but I think instead I'll just find a way to pay off the added debt. Thankfully - no interest... whew, at least some company isn't completely trying to bleed me dry.
Affina, my career home for the past 12 years is no longer Affina - we are now HGS or Hinduja Global Solutions, and not only changing names but looking to move locations in the near future as well. Quite a lot of excitement at work. At this time, however, none of that excitement has anything to do with a promotion for a diligent, deserving, hard working, loyal, dedicated, intelligent, capably, tenured employee that is in dyer need of additional income and soon to be leaving on maternity leave, so not able to hope for any new opportunities in the next three months. Speaking of bleeding me dry, my place of employment has the ability to do that to me over and over and over again, and yet I still believe that opportunities exist here, and I WILL find them. I can't speak bad of Affina, they've paid my bills for years... unfortunately, my pay has not inflated at the rate of my living expenses, and with a baby on the way, I'm starting to get scared.
That being said, my search for part time work at home (legitimate) jobs, still continues. I've found several in which I'm interested and at which I think I can excel, it's all a matter of selling myself to them now, getting the job, and seeing the compensation. It will happen.
That's all for now folks. I'll try to write again before a week goes by.
7.20.2011
3rd Monday in a row
This week is proving to go by super slow, although not much different than any other of late.
Took Em for her separators this morning, then went to class and managed to get in a reasonable workout, which felt good. Then to work where I've been sitting and staring at my computer, being slammed all day and not feeling like I've done anything productive. Gotta love that feeling.
Tomorrow morning I get to relax a little before class at least. Maybe do some packing, if I'm feeling energetic (have I mentioned yet we're moving in the very near future - ugh - different post for a different day), or just chill in a bubble bath and forget that I have to go to work tomorrow night. That's tempting.
Got Trent a dentist appt tomorrow, at least the initial one. He's a big boy, and can go from there with any follow up appointments. Hopefully he's clean of all cavities and can schedule a cleaning and no extra bills will be accrued... the braces being enough for a while yet... but we'll see. I think he's got a few cavities they might find and want to fill.
I just hope tomorrow and Friday speed by a little faster the past three days. I know if I get an offer for my reporting job I'm waiting on, time will fly by for a while. I think I just need that confidence mood booster that's been missing for a while. Rejection will only make the minute hand slow down even further, I'm sure. Still have my fingers crossed... I hope tomorrow at least ends up being Tuesday!
Short and sweet tonight - just typing to kill my last break of the day.
Took Em for her separators this morning, then went to class and managed to get in a reasonable workout, which felt good. Then to work where I've been sitting and staring at my computer, being slammed all day and not feeling like I've done anything productive. Gotta love that feeling.
Tomorrow morning I get to relax a little before class at least. Maybe do some packing, if I'm feeling energetic (have I mentioned yet we're moving in the very near future - ugh - different post for a different day), or just chill in a bubble bath and forget that I have to go to work tomorrow night. That's tempting.
Got Trent a dentist appt tomorrow, at least the initial one. He's a big boy, and can go from there with any follow up appointments. Hopefully he's clean of all cavities and can schedule a cleaning and no extra bills will be accrued... the braces being enough for a while yet... but we'll see. I think he's got a few cavities they might find and want to fill.
I just hope tomorrow and Friday speed by a little faster the past three days. I know if I get an offer for my reporting job I'm waiting on, time will fly by for a while. I think I just need that confidence mood booster that's been missing for a while. Rejection will only make the minute hand slow down even further, I'm sure. Still have my fingers crossed... I hope tomorrow at least ends up being Tuesday!
Short and sweet tonight - just typing to kill my last break of the day.
7.19.2011
Braces Are Coming
What a stressful situations - comparison shopping for braces for my child. Really? Am I so cheap that I seek out the lowest bidder? But alas, that's exactly what I did. The orthodontist I went with is highly rated and will be great, I'm sure, but I still wish I could be that kind of mother to get my child necessary medical procedures without surrendering to the pains of financial burden.
Anyway - I ended up with a great deal... $4500, which could not be beat by our dentist. I pay $650 up front, and sell my soul to them for the next two years until the remainder is paid off at $160/mo. It's not horrible. If not for child support, there would be no possible way I could do it, and my daughter would suffer with bad teeth forever, so Thanks Rob! Tomorrow we go get separators put in, and next week on the 28th we'll get the braces. I feel bad for the kid... I never had to have them myself, but I'm sure it will be a bit of a discomfort and inconvenience for her. She is, however, excited about getting different colored rubber bands. It's going to be her new fashion statement I guess. Can't hold my kid back with school uniforms.
In other news - I went yesterday for my gestational glucose testing. This involves having a finger prick test, then having blood drawn, following that with drinking some orange liquidated sugar substance, then waiting an hour, having blood drawn again, waiting another hour and having blood drawn a final time. In total, I was in the office for a little over two and half hours. I was forewarned that if I were to throw up the orange drink, I'd have to reschedule and return to be tortured again... of course, having heard this, I got more nauseous sitting there waiting than I have been my entire pregnancy thus far. I did manage to hold it down though. I was told I would be contacted IF there are any concerns, and it should be within 2-3 days, so hopefulling if I do not hear anything by the end of the day tomorrow, I'm home free!!! And free to eat all the sugar I want!!! yummy!
Still waiting on my promotion here at work! It's coming though, I know it. I deserve it! Actually, I'm almost positive it's not coming... but I'm used to the rejection by now, and almost understand not wanting to hire a pregnant woman with her leave so imminently dangling in the not too distant future... still, I'll keep my fingers crossed... I do deserve it, and most of all, I desperately NEED it. It's a job I know I can excel at, I just hope they know that too. Wish me luck?
Anyway - I ended up with a great deal... $4500, which could not be beat by our dentist. I pay $650 up front, and sell my soul to them for the next two years until the remainder is paid off at $160/mo. It's not horrible. If not for child support, there would be no possible way I could do it, and my daughter would suffer with bad teeth forever, so Thanks Rob! Tomorrow we go get separators put in, and next week on the 28th we'll get the braces. I feel bad for the kid... I never had to have them myself, but I'm sure it will be a bit of a discomfort and inconvenience for her. She is, however, excited about getting different colored rubber bands. It's going to be her new fashion statement I guess. Can't hold my kid back with school uniforms.
In other news - I went yesterday for my gestational glucose testing. This involves having a finger prick test, then having blood drawn, following that with drinking some orange liquidated sugar substance, then waiting an hour, having blood drawn again, waiting another hour and having blood drawn a final time. In total, I was in the office for a little over two and half hours. I was forewarned that if I were to throw up the orange drink, I'd have to reschedule and return to be tortured again... of course, having heard this, I got more nauseous sitting there waiting than I have been my entire pregnancy thus far. I did manage to hold it down though. I was told I would be contacted IF there are any concerns, and it should be within 2-3 days, so hopefulling if I do not hear anything by the end of the day tomorrow, I'm home free!!! And free to eat all the sugar I want!!! yummy!
Still waiting on my promotion here at work! It's coming though, I know it. I deserve it! Actually, I'm almost positive it's not coming... but I'm used to the rejection by now, and almost understand not wanting to hire a pregnant woman with her leave so imminently dangling in the not too distant future... still, I'll keep my fingers crossed... I do deserve it, and most of all, I desperately NEED it. It's a job I know I can excel at, I just hope they know that too. Wish me luck?
7.18.2011
Job Hunt
Well, I missed a few days last week, but that's alright. I'm still alive and I'm back for another entry without a full year or three passing in the meantime.
I never did hear back from Ozio Media, good riddance. I can write off that venture as a mild waste of my energy. I did sign up at www.virtualvocations.com for a 15.99/mo fee to view their at home work offerings. It appears to be a legitimate site with legitimate possibilities, and hopefully something will come of it. Many of the jobs are 'work at home' after you undergo in house training for so long with the company, so those won't work for me, since I don't live in those locations and would not be able to commit myself to another full time job at the moment, but there are several potential jobs for me.
Some of the jobs are as simple as creating blog entries for other companies, and some as detailed as creating and maintaining websites and on-line programs for them. I am limiting what I apply for to only those at which I know I could easily excel. I put in for two jobs late last week and have not heard back yet.
However, the third was for a transcriptionist and I was invited to test for the opportunity. Within a day after testing I was advised that while I was not an ideal candidate for that specific opportunity, I may be interested in a note taker job with them and invited to take another test. This is on my to-do list, and probably needs moved to the top of the list, before they fill all needed slots. I would be a contracted employee making $12.00 an hour for my work, and allowed anywhere from 2-16hours of work per week, which would be perfect for some extra cash. We'll see how it pans out, as soon I log in and take the test.
I also applied at work for another promotion. I am crossing my fingers for this one, and expecting either an offer or a rejection within the next week. By this time next Monday I should know. The position would allow me first shift work (thank Heavens), and a little extra compensation to help cover new baby/daycare expenses that are rapidly approaching my budget, and hopefully a means of paying for my daughters braces (which I still need to schedule!!!!)
My to do list is growing and my ambition is failing me. The summer is coming to an end, and I need to get cracking!
I guess that thought is my Q to get off of here and do some work. I'll be back later this week with updates.
I never did hear back from Ozio Media, good riddance. I can write off that venture as a mild waste of my energy. I did sign up at www.virtualvocations.com for a 15.99/mo fee to view their at home work offerings. It appears to be a legitimate site with legitimate possibilities, and hopefully something will come of it. Many of the jobs are 'work at home' after you undergo in house training for so long with the company, so those won't work for me, since I don't live in those locations and would not be able to commit myself to another full time job at the moment, but there are several potential jobs for me.
Some of the jobs are as simple as creating blog entries for other companies, and some as detailed as creating and maintaining websites and on-line programs for them. I am limiting what I apply for to only those at which I know I could easily excel. I put in for two jobs late last week and have not heard back yet.
However, the third was for a transcriptionist and I was invited to test for the opportunity. Within a day after testing I was advised that while I was not an ideal candidate for that specific opportunity, I may be interested in a note taker job with them and invited to take another test. This is on my to-do list, and probably needs moved to the top of the list, before they fill all needed slots. I would be a contracted employee making $12.00 an hour for my work, and allowed anywhere from 2-16hours of work per week, which would be perfect for some extra cash. We'll see how it pans out, as soon I log in and take the test.
I also applied at work for another promotion. I am crossing my fingers for this one, and expecting either an offer or a rejection within the next week. By this time next Monday I should know. The position would allow me first shift work (thank Heavens), and a little extra compensation to help cover new baby/daycare expenses that are rapidly approaching my budget, and hopefully a means of paying for my daughters braces (which I still need to schedule!!!!)
My to do list is growing and my ambition is failing me. The summer is coming to an end, and I need to get cracking!
I guess that thought is my Q to get off of here and do some work. I'll be back later this week with updates.
7.12.2011
lost post?
Oops. Not sure what happened, but I just wrote about last weekends adventures and completely lost the post prior to publishing it. I won't recreate all that I said - even though I felt it was a pretty good rendition of a horrible occurrence we witnessed at Splashdown water park this past weekend. Maybe, after all, it was lost because it's one of those memories on which I should not dwell.
That being said, time is limited and this is about all I can muster as a rewrite... til next time.
That being said, time is limited and this is about all I can muster as a rewrite... til next time.
7.11.2011
Ozio Media - scam?
OK - so I'm not going to venture far enough to call this work at home opportunity a scam, but I will say that it seems pretty shoddy at this point.
While I was accepted at higher than the standard $1/500 words, I was not given any assignments at that price as I was told those were very few and far between, and I could accept an assignment for $1.50/100 words. I offered to try this out, but did not receive an assignment until almost 10pm last Friday night, and did not check my mail until this morning... way past the deadline for acceptance. While I am curious to see what would have happened had I accepted, the guidelines were poor and I keep seeing their rules about 'rejected' articles. It is an insult enough to have submitted so many samples without pay, but if I actually accepted an assignment at such a low pay offering and then not gotten paid for it, I would have been ticked.
The message I then received Saturday afternoon stated that I had six hours to accept the assignment or I would not be offered anything further. I guess it's a one shot thing, and you cannot go more than six hours without staring at your computer waiting for an offer.
Anyway, I figure writing 5 400-500 word articles per day would take me at least 2 hours. That said, I would be making $7.50 for two hours work. Even then, I wonder - the criteria for the assignment I missed stated 430-470 words per article... so do they total up all the articles and base pay off of that, or would I not be paid at all since I'm paid per 500 words? That's a risk I certainly don't want to take.
At this point I feel I've wasted at least 4 hours of my life on this 'golden opportunity' and am choosing not to waste anything further. Scam or no scam, I did not spend any money investing in the possibility, nor did I make any money for my meager efforts...
On to the next opportunity... bring it on.
While I was accepted at higher than the standard $1/500 words, I was not given any assignments at that price as I was told those were very few and far between, and I could accept an assignment for $1.50/100 words. I offered to try this out, but did not receive an assignment until almost 10pm last Friday night, and did not check my mail until this morning... way past the deadline for acceptance. While I am curious to see what would have happened had I accepted, the guidelines were poor and I keep seeing their rules about 'rejected' articles. It is an insult enough to have submitted so many samples without pay, but if I actually accepted an assignment at such a low pay offering and then not gotten paid for it, I would have been ticked.
The message I then received Saturday afternoon stated that I had six hours to accept the assignment or I would not be offered anything further. I guess it's a one shot thing, and you cannot go more than six hours without staring at your computer waiting for an offer.
Anyway, I figure writing 5 400-500 word articles per day would take me at least 2 hours. That said, I would be making $7.50 for two hours work. Even then, I wonder - the criteria for the assignment I missed stated 430-470 words per article... so do they total up all the articles and base pay off of that, or would I not be paid at all since I'm paid per 500 words? That's a risk I certainly don't want to take.
At this point I feel I've wasted at least 4 hours of my life on this 'golden opportunity' and am choosing not to waste anything further. Scam or no scam, I did not spend any money investing in the possibility, nor did I make any money for my meager efforts...
On to the next opportunity... bring it on.
7.08.2011
Frustrations
Back to my last post for a moment... I did receive an email back late last night in regards to my latest 'sample articles'. This time I was informed that my writing basically sucked and would be too much of a proofreading hassle for further consideration on the two possible assignments for which I'd been a potential candidate. Eek. What a downer to my spirit.
I did send back a nice polite response today thanking my 'team leader' for his feedback and expressing my desire in another opportunity to prove my worthiness should they decide to offer me a second chance, but have yet to receive any reply to this message. We'll see... I'll be sure to mention it in a future post if anything happens. I am just upset at the effort put into writing freebie articles that apparently went from excellent to less than sub-par in a weeks time span. Come on paying gig... give me a chance at redemption.
Good news in the Miller house - Trent (hubby) recently acquired a small boost in his pay. This will help significantly with baby expenses come November. Why include this in my 'frustrations' blog? Well - he is now taking home more than me and as proud of him as I am, I HATE it! I either need to be the primary breadwinner in the household, or I need to be a stay at home mother with him taking complete care of me. I don't like being in the middle, where I don't feel I'm happy with my career and certainly feel less than thrilled about my involvement with my children and household duties. Yet right now, that's right where I am... stuck in the middle.
On a happy note - Tomorrow is Trent's birthday, I'm logging off now to go get him a card. Wishing him the happiest of days, and hoping he's OK with the Cubs/Cardinals tickets I got him.
More thoughts and frustrations to come in the near future... I can't seem to stop them...
I did send back a nice polite response today thanking my 'team leader' for his feedback and expressing my desire in another opportunity to prove my worthiness should they decide to offer me a second chance, but have yet to receive any reply to this message. We'll see... I'll be sure to mention it in a future post if anything happens. I am just upset at the effort put into writing freebie articles that apparently went from excellent to less than sub-par in a weeks time span. Come on paying gig... give me a chance at redemption.
Good news in the Miller house - Trent (hubby) recently acquired a small boost in his pay. This will help significantly with baby expenses come November. Why include this in my 'frustrations' blog? Well - he is now taking home more than me and as proud of him as I am, I HATE it! I either need to be the primary breadwinner in the household, or I need to be a stay at home mother with him taking complete care of me. I don't like being in the middle, where I don't feel I'm happy with my career and certainly feel less than thrilled about my involvement with my children and household duties. Yet right now, that's right where I am... stuck in the middle.
On a happy note - Tomorrow is Trent's birthday, I'm logging off now to go get him a card. Wishing him the happiest of days, and hoping he's OK with the Cubs/Cardinals tickets I got him.
More thoughts and frustrations to come in the near future... I can't seem to stop them...
7.07.2011
Jobs at Home
side note: Three days in a row that I'm posting here, a new record... of which I am quite proud!
In a desperate attempt to find a part time gig and bring in a little extra income, I started (once again), searching for work at home opportunities on line. I have had my fair share of trial and error in this area and have spent much more money than I wish to admit to on 'scam' type positions that promised large income potential and was adamant that I was not going to do that this time around.
In a search for writing/editing opportunities I came across one appearing fairly legitimate on jobsathome.com. This opportunity did not promise high levels of income, but also did not require any initial investment, so it appears to be more realistic than those telling me if I spend hundreds now and work minutes or less a day, I can earn thousands each week in no time.
In short, the offer stated that I could earn between $1 and $15 per article for clients requiring articles of typically 400-500 words each, and I just need to promise to be available to write 4-5 articles a day at minimum and at least 5 days per week. That seems reasonable. Upon emailing my resume and expression of interest in the position, I was told most contracts are $1 per 500 words. In my mind this is approximately 2 hours of work each day for 5 articles, totaling a whopping earnings of $5 per day or $25 per week. Out of curiosity, I went ahead and proceeded in the application process, expressing to the HR representative that while I would be willing to give this chance, I could not commit myself long term to something so trivial in compensation.
This being said I was asked for and submitted three 'sample' articles of 200 words each as my test to be offered a contract. After these submissions were reviewed I received word that my writing excels (yay) and that I was being passed on for further consideration and would be able to obtain at least $2/500 words, but not likely more. In the end I was offered placement for $1/100 words (even better) and assigned to a project manager to receive further instructions. I gladly accepted this contract, expecting to be put to work immediately, and earning $50-$75 extra dollars weekly for an estimate of about 10 hours work. Of course this estimate is just my own hope that my assignments are simple topics about which I already have some knowledge and can crank out 500 words in no time at all.... I am still waiting to see if this estimate is accurate and if there is potential in this position.
I started this process early last week, and after sending my samples, being reviewed and accepting the final contract terms (last Thursday), I have been waiting further instruction. A week has passed, and I have yet to earn a dime.
After sending an inquiry about the status of my first assignment I was informed yesterday that assignments at my level of pay are few and far between and it may be weeks before I receive my first project to accept. In the meantime, I am to keep checking, as they require almost immediate response and at least an average of one article every six hours when an assignment is accepted. In the meantime, if I wish, there are lower paying assignments 'below my pay level' that I can be offered. While I was debating on accepting a lower assignment, today I was transferred to a new project manager who may have assignments for me in the genre of 'green sustainability' and the financial industry, two topics about which I feel capable of writing and was willing to try out. I was asked for yet some more sample articles on these very general topics to share with the client to see if I was a right fit for the job.
So as of now, I have written a total of three 'sample articles' from which I can be judged, and still have yet to receive an actual assignment and earn a penny. It's only been a week, so I am still optimistic, but my initial enthusiasm is starting to dwindle. I am hoping that by tomorrow my latest samples will have been reviewed, deemed suitable, and a paying gig will be awaiting me in my inbox.
Despite my loss of enthusiasm, I have not spent a penny nor have I had to provide any personal information, and therefore am still fairly certain this is not a scam. My pay is supposed to be paid through Paypal every Friday, for any articles written that week, which seems safe enough. Hopefully by next Friday (since I've missed the mark for tomorrows payment) I will start to see a little earnings from this endeavor and will have a better feel for how the system works and how much time it will take me to make a few extra bucks.
I'll keep posting any new developments, in case anyone is interested. Cross your fingers for me world! $75 per week will at least help me pay for Em's much needed braces.... speaking of... darn, was supposed to schedule that to happen sometime soon... getting out the long list of 'to do's'.
Signing out...
In a desperate attempt to find a part time gig and bring in a little extra income, I started (once again), searching for work at home opportunities on line. I have had my fair share of trial and error in this area and have spent much more money than I wish to admit to on 'scam' type positions that promised large income potential and was adamant that I was not going to do that this time around.
In a search for writing/editing opportunities I came across one appearing fairly legitimate on jobsathome.com. This opportunity did not promise high levels of income, but also did not require any initial investment, so it appears to be more realistic than those telling me if I spend hundreds now and work minutes or less a day, I can earn thousands each week in no time.
In short, the offer stated that I could earn between $1 and $15 per article for clients requiring articles of typically 400-500 words each, and I just need to promise to be available to write 4-5 articles a day at minimum and at least 5 days per week. That seems reasonable. Upon emailing my resume and expression of interest in the position, I was told most contracts are $1 per 500 words. In my mind this is approximately 2 hours of work each day for 5 articles, totaling a whopping earnings of $5 per day or $25 per week. Out of curiosity, I went ahead and proceeded in the application process, expressing to the HR representative that while I would be willing to give this chance, I could not commit myself long term to something so trivial in compensation.
This being said I was asked for and submitted three 'sample' articles of 200 words each as my test to be offered a contract. After these submissions were reviewed I received word that my writing excels (yay) and that I was being passed on for further consideration and would be able to obtain at least $2/500 words, but not likely more. In the end I was offered placement for $1/100 words (even better) and assigned to a project manager to receive further instructions. I gladly accepted this contract, expecting to be put to work immediately, and earning $50-$75 extra dollars weekly for an estimate of about 10 hours work. Of course this estimate is just my own hope that my assignments are simple topics about which I already have some knowledge and can crank out 500 words in no time at all.... I am still waiting to see if this estimate is accurate and if there is potential in this position.
I started this process early last week, and after sending my samples, being reviewed and accepting the final contract terms (last Thursday), I have been waiting further instruction. A week has passed, and I have yet to earn a dime.
After sending an inquiry about the status of my first assignment I was informed yesterday that assignments at my level of pay are few and far between and it may be weeks before I receive my first project to accept. In the meantime, I am to keep checking, as they require almost immediate response and at least an average of one article every six hours when an assignment is accepted. In the meantime, if I wish, there are lower paying assignments 'below my pay level' that I can be offered. While I was debating on accepting a lower assignment, today I was transferred to a new project manager who may have assignments for me in the genre of 'green sustainability' and the financial industry, two topics about which I feel capable of writing and was willing to try out. I was asked for yet some more sample articles on these very general topics to share with the client to see if I was a right fit for the job.
So as of now, I have written a total of three 'sample articles' from which I can be judged, and still have yet to receive an actual assignment and earn a penny. It's only been a week, so I am still optimistic, but my initial enthusiasm is starting to dwindle. I am hoping that by tomorrow my latest samples will have been reviewed, deemed suitable, and a paying gig will be awaiting me in my inbox.
Despite my loss of enthusiasm, I have not spent a penny nor have I had to provide any personal information, and therefore am still fairly certain this is not a scam. My pay is supposed to be paid through Paypal every Friday, for any articles written that week, which seems safe enough. Hopefully by next Friday (since I've missed the mark for tomorrows payment) I will start to see a little earnings from this endeavor and will have a better feel for how the system works and how much time it will take me to make a few extra bucks.
I'll keep posting any new developments, in case anyone is interested. Cross your fingers for me world! $75 per week will at least help me pay for Em's much needed braces.... speaking of... darn, was supposed to schedule that to happen sometime soon... getting out the long list of 'to do's'.
Signing out...
7.06.2011
Pregnant thoughts from a pregnant woman
I always enjoyed being pregnant when I first had Em 12 years ago... no complications, no unpleasantness, no weird cravings... just the nice knowledge that life was flourishing inside my body.
The experience is definitely one that I'm grateful I can have... I wouldn't give it up for anything.
As for the second time around... well, I'm almost 30 years old now, and things have changed slightly. Years of smoking have made me sluggish, yet years of working out have made me stronger. I didn't have any real morning sickness either time around (thank Heavens!), and have only felt slight discomforts in this go-round. I don't remember ligaments stretching out before... but I can certainly feel them these days. I was not quite as active during my first pregnancy, but I am hating the 'toning it down' aspect of this one. I feel invincible... until I feel a cramping pain in my abdomen and have to remind myself there is life in there and I need to take it easy.
There is a lot I want to do and a lot of activities in which I'd like to partake, and yet I am not limited by a child whose face I have yet to see. It is an odd feeling, and yet exhilarating to know that every action I take and decision I make is directly impacting the life growing in my womb.
I have read about all the activities I should avoid (as well as the foods and beverages), and don't feel too limited except for by my own abilities. I can still do karate, but alas, my kicks no longer go over my head, and my stances have risen considerable. I can still do calisthenics, as long as I avoid ab workouts like sit ups or other strenuous activities. I've had to recently drop to my knees for 'girly' push ups as the strain of real ones has been relatively painful. While I don't feel weaker, I certainly don't want to get that way either, and have to walk the fine line of maintaining my own health and strength without jeopardizing that of my new daughter.
Caffeine (or lack thereof) is my biggest pregnancy trial. I am a coffee drinker, and miss it terribly. I am no saint, I still partake is a daily dosage... but only a small one, then spend the rest of my days wishing for another, and sorrowfully downing my bottled water, or decaffeinated, highly caloric sprite or fruit juice instead. (My coffee and diet Dr. Pepper that I used to consume had no calories... this is an injustice to pregnant women. I also find myself more often than ever desiring the few foods that I am supposed to limit, such as fish. I was never a huge fish consumer... but now, I'm finding that a few ounces a week is too trivial, and always wanting more. Luckily those I enjoy the most are fairly low in mercury and therefore fairly safe for me and my fetus.
As for my body... oh, it's a-changin'. It started with a widening of the hips, almost instantaneously, and at about four months, the belly started to protrude. While I'm starting to look the part, at 23 weeks along, I know I'll only get bigger and am well aware of the damage my figure will suffer and the hardships I'll have in getting back my body after birth. The odd thing is, I don't 'feel' pregnant... not yet at least. If it weren't for the lack of my monthly visitor, the shapeliness of my hips and stomach and a slight fluttering I feel occasionally when at rest, I wouldn't know I was pregnant at all. I am waiting for the day when the real kicking gets started, and when I can't so much as touch my toes any longer. Maybe then it will truly hit me. I can't wait for Trent to be able to feel the kicking either. It's a totally beautiful life changing thing to feel your child's movements, and the closest he can get to contact for another four months.
All in all, the pregnancy is going well, and I can't wait to meet my new baby. I have a feeling she'll be tiny in comparison to Em at birth, and hope that means she'll stay a precious baby for that much longer! I can't wait!
The experience is definitely one that I'm grateful I can have... I wouldn't give it up for anything.
As for the second time around... well, I'm almost 30 years old now, and things have changed slightly. Years of smoking have made me sluggish, yet years of working out have made me stronger. I didn't have any real morning sickness either time around (thank Heavens!), and have only felt slight discomforts in this go-round. I don't remember ligaments stretching out before... but I can certainly feel them these days. I was not quite as active during my first pregnancy, but I am hating the 'toning it down' aspect of this one. I feel invincible... until I feel a cramping pain in my abdomen and have to remind myself there is life in there and I need to take it easy.
There is a lot I want to do and a lot of activities in which I'd like to partake, and yet I am not limited by a child whose face I have yet to see. It is an odd feeling, and yet exhilarating to know that every action I take and decision I make is directly impacting the life growing in my womb.
I have read about all the activities I should avoid (as well as the foods and beverages), and don't feel too limited except for by my own abilities. I can still do karate, but alas, my kicks no longer go over my head, and my stances have risen considerable. I can still do calisthenics, as long as I avoid ab workouts like sit ups or other strenuous activities. I've had to recently drop to my knees for 'girly' push ups as the strain of real ones has been relatively painful. While I don't feel weaker, I certainly don't want to get that way either, and have to walk the fine line of maintaining my own health and strength without jeopardizing that of my new daughter.
Caffeine (or lack thereof) is my biggest pregnancy trial. I am a coffee drinker, and miss it terribly. I am no saint, I still partake is a daily dosage... but only a small one, then spend the rest of my days wishing for another, and sorrowfully downing my bottled water, or decaffeinated, highly caloric sprite or fruit juice instead. (My coffee and diet Dr. Pepper that I used to consume had no calories... this is an injustice to pregnant women. I also find myself more often than ever desiring the few foods that I am supposed to limit, such as fish. I was never a huge fish consumer... but now, I'm finding that a few ounces a week is too trivial, and always wanting more. Luckily those I enjoy the most are fairly low in mercury and therefore fairly safe for me and my fetus.
As for my body... oh, it's a-changin'. It started with a widening of the hips, almost instantaneously, and at about four months, the belly started to protrude. While I'm starting to look the part, at 23 weeks along, I know I'll only get bigger and am well aware of the damage my figure will suffer and the hardships I'll have in getting back my body after birth. The odd thing is, I don't 'feel' pregnant... not yet at least. If it weren't for the lack of my monthly visitor, the shapeliness of my hips and stomach and a slight fluttering I feel occasionally when at rest, I wouldn't know I was pregnant at all. I am waiting for the day when the real kicking gets started, and when I can't so much as touch my toes any longer. Maybe then it will truly hit me. I can't wait for Trent to be able to feel the kicking either. It's a totally beautiful life changing thing to feel your child's movements, and the closest he can get to contact for another four months.
All in all, the pregnancy is going well, and I can't wait to meet my new baby. I have a feeling she'll be tiny in comparison to Em at birth, and hope that means she'll stay a precious baby for that much longer! I can't wait!
7.05.2011
Too much time has passed
Hey all... hmmm... I created this in 2008 and it has now taken me about 30 minutes just to figure out how to log into my own blog to post something again.
What has happened in the last 3 years (almost)...
Well... hmmm...
Emlee will be 12 and starting 8th grade in the fall.
Trent and I FINALLY tied the know. (May 14th, 2011). :) Oh happy day! We didn't get to the alter without a few struggles over the last 5 years, but we did get there, and can't be happier.
Trent and I have a baby on the way... a little girl... Trinity TBD Miller...
Trinity will either be a 6 month pregnancy or people will do the math and realize she may be the miracle that finally made us jump on the marriage bandwagon and get-r-done. Either way, we'll love her to pieces. (last appointment was 2 weeks ago... she weighed in at 9 ounces... approx 10 inches long with a strong heart beat of 157 beats per minute... and alas, no penis.)
Due date is November 6th... we're shooting for November 11th... come on 11-11-11!!!
I finally completed my associates in the summer of 2010... jumped right into a Bachelor's program... will have it completed in July 2012, barring any delays in the meantime.
I finally left my job at Affina... became a car salesman, then went on to manage the warehouse for Parker... did that for 18 months then returned to Affina... I guess this place is my security blanket and I can't quite give it up, despite every effort on my part to do so. Been back here since March of 2010, and will likely remain here, til death do us part.
That about covers my last 3 years... so much excitement, yet so little to say...
I am determined to use this blog now for what it was intended... basically a journal for myself... and an insight into who the heck I am for anyone that may care to read it...
Anyone want to place bets on how long it will be now until my next post? Will I keep this up for a day, a week, a month? Will I post about the birth of my new baby before I post about the birth of my first grandchildren? We'll see.
Signing out for now... hopefully I'll knock out a little homework or housework yet tonight - but most likely it will be shower and TV time instead.
What has happened in the last 3 years (almost)...
Well... hmmm...
Emlee will be 12 and starting 8th grade in the fall.
Trent and I FINALLY tied the know. (May 14th, 2011). :) Oh happy day! We didn't get to the alter without a few struggles over the last 5 years, but we did get there, and can't be happier.
Trent and I have a baby on the way... a little girl... Trinity TBD Miller...
Trinity will either be a 6 month pregnancy or people will do the math and realize she may be the miracle that finally made us jump on the marriage bandwagon and get-r-done. Either way, we'll love her to pieces. (last appointment was 2 weeks ago... she weighed in at 9 ounces... approx 10 inches long with a strong heart beat of 157 beats per minute... and alas, no penis.)
Due date is November 6th... we're shooting for November 11th... come on 11-11-11!!!
I finally completed my associates in the summer of 2010... jumped right into a Bachelor's program... will have it completed in July 2012, barring any delays in the meantime.
I finally left my job at Affina... became a car salesman, then went on to manage the warehouse for Parker... did that for 18 months then returned to Affina... I guess this place is my security blanket and I can't quite give it up, despite every effort on my part to do so. Been back here since March of 2010, and will likely remain here, til death do us part.
That about covers my last 3 years... so much excitement, yet so little to say...
I am determined to use this blog now for what it was intended... basically a journal for myself... and an insight into who the heck I am for anyone that may care to read it...
Anyone want to place bets on how long it will be now until my next post? Will I keep this up for a day, a week, a month? Will I post about the birth of my new baby before I post about the birth of my first grandchildren? We'll see.
Signing out for now... hopefully I'll knock out a little homework or housework yet tonight - but most likely it will be shower and TV time instead.
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