My First Thirty Years

I have hit that ever dreaded age - 30, been there for almost a month now... really feel no older than I did at 29 or even 25, or heck, not really sure what's so different now than at 18... and maybe that's the problem.

My metabolism has progressively died off on me - I guess that's one difference.

I'm in a happy marriage now - that's definitly a new difference.

And I'm pregnant and feeling more aches and pains than I recall with my first child 12 years ago - so I guess that's sayinig something for age.

But really, life doesn't seem much different to me, which has caused a lot of reflection, both good and bad about my life and my future. So as a part of a two part series (next up - my next 30 years), I want to take a moment to reflect on my life up until now.

Accomplishments in my first 30 years:
EMLEE! # 1.
Meeting, hooking & 'trapping' Trent #2
Maintaining a job for 12 straight years
Completing my GED
Completing my Associates Degree
Almost completing my Bachelor's Degree (still in progress, no worries - it will get done)
Learning and attempting several different career opportunities
Two home purchases
Pretty decent credit
Independance
Pregnant with baby # 2 (still in progress, no worries - she'll be a 'next 30 years accomplishment')
Surviving and learning to live well despite severe depression
Making friends
Keeping friends
Being Kind
Gaining Confidence
Earning my 1st degree brown belt in Karate
Maintaining a decent figure
Keeping a good relationship with my mother
Providing for my family
Always having X-mas gifts under the tree for those that I love

Regrets for my 1st 30 years:
Letting loved ones leave me - without them knowing I loved them! #1
Marrying too young.
Dropping out of highschool (despite pursuing my GED right after)
Telling one of my bosses he was the worst boss I'd ever had
Telling my husband (when engaged) that I didn't want to love him anymore. (I really did - couldn't help it)
Not eloping to Vegas!
Cashing in my 401k savings - twice... (it was needed)
Not starting a new 401k plan when returning to Affina (HGS)
Letting my teeth get so bad
Not finishing my degree early in life
Not having a means of paying for my degree with anything other than loans I'm not sure how I'll repay
Not working out more
Not spending more time with my daughter
Sleeping around - way too much
Feeling dependant upon having a man in my life
Releasing my pains through late night crys and sobbing in a bubble bath - surely there were more constructive ways

And I'm sure there are more... both accomplishments and regrets... but who wants to focus that hard on the past, when I have a perfectly good next 30 years ahead of me... and need to think about what happens next.